Wednesday Wisdom

It's not too late.
Unless, perhaps, we haven't learned.

John

God is Good -- Oh, Really?

It is unsettling how often we can look at the God of the Bible and see that God is not very good at all.
That God seems to relish in killing off entire nations or punishing individuals by some slow, torturous means like stoning.
Even the New Testament God would offer a human sacrifice (his own son) to save people from his own condemnation!

Are these the hallmarks of a good God?
Sorry, but I don't think so.

I'm going to go with a lot of "I don't know"s when it comes to religious matters. I am very distrustful of religious people. Sorting out what to keep from my religious past is challenging. It is very discouraging to think that it has all been a lie.
Was there any truth in it?
Is there anything worth keeping?

Here's my answer -- I don't know.

I am trying to find answers. 
But I am changing the first question from -- Was there any truth in it? to -- Was there any good in it?
If I do that, I can tell you the answer to the second question is -- Yes! There is much worth keeping.
And there is much worth studying further.

I think Jesus is worth studying and following. I think he taught some good stuff. I am not greatly concerned that you follow his teachings, although I do believe that many could benefit from doing the things he taught. I don't believe that choosing to follow him will determine if you go to heaven or hell. I don't even know if the heaven and hell of my religious upbringing exists. 
For now, I'm filing it under "I don't know," but I strongly doubt its existence.

God is Good
But not that God.

For what it's worth...
I actually believe that God is Good.
I believe that God loves you (and me, too).
And even if I'm wrong, at least it makes a good bumper sticker.*

John

*It was a God is Good bumper sticker that got me started on this post.

Old Guys and Friendships

Admittedly, 66 isn't all that old.
However, it does put me at an age where physical changes sometimes surprise me. 
There are also social changes that become issues for a lot of guys entering retirement. I've been retired 11+ years now and didn't really feel the isolation that many feel.

For whatever reason, older guys don't seem to have the one on one friendships that most women seem to have. It often seems to be that guys maintain an identity that encompasses what they do for a living --what they are -- more so than who they are. When work is over and those people connections are lost they feel isolated, alone, and without a purpose.

That part wasn't really an issue for me for a few reasons.
First of all -- ATC was what I did. It was never who I was.
Secondly -- I didn't really do much with co-workers outside of work.
Thirdly -- I kept busy with church stuff and magic ministry for a few years before that came to an end.

When the church gig came to an end, admittedly, I was a little lost. It wasn't a big deal since so many people relationships within the church are superficial and conditional at best.
And besides, being alone and being lonely are very different things.
I greatly enjoy being alone.

However, as I age, I can see that having a close guy friend or two would be nice. I don't know if it is too late to really work on that or not, but I also need to feel right about the people that are close to me. I don't want somebody that drains my energy or has a contradictory view on life. 
We don't have to be completely like-minded, but (in my head) contradictory is not the same as different. Contradictory says -- You're wrong and I'm right, and rarely leaves room for discussion or conversation.

I have started meeting with a couple of guys -- breakfast every other week with a guy a few years older and lunches every now and then with a guy a few years younger. It's been good for me. One guy is a shelter volunteer; the other I met through The Venues church and have kept in touch with even though I rarely go anymore.
I have a couple of cherished high school classmates that I really look forward to connecting with on each trip back to central Illinois, as well as a couple of same age friends when we visit the kids in Puerto Vallarta.

I am quite fortunate to have these guys that are a part of my life. 
I do not have a great following in general, even less of a following by retired guys. If you see yourself in this post, feel free to chime in with your thoughts. I consider my old guy fellow bloggers to be included in my list of friends, as well.

John

Audio books

I'm not much of an audio book fan. Yesterday I listened to my fourth book (1st this year). Like the previous three, this one was on a long, traveling solo road trip. The first was actually an accidental download from the Libby app. I thought I was getting an e-book, but got an audio book instead.

Typically, I listen to music while on the road. Yesterday I decided to find a book to listen to.
I am going to say that listening to books has its place and has definitely helped pass the time on an all day drive, but I am going to stick to reading for the most part. 

Two of the four books have been read by the author; two have been read by other people. How does a person get paid to read a book out loud? That seems like a decent gig if you don't mind the sound of your own voice and sitting still for hours on end.

How do you feel about audio books?
I think I would use them more often if I spent a lot of time in the car. 

John

Saturday

I am not much of a tech guy, but I have recently upgraded in a couple of areas. I have been used to owning the cheapest available cell phone and that has worked out well since even the cheap smart phones are smarter than I am.  A recent switch in providers netted me an upgrade to a Samsung Galaxy 26+ that I am certain to under utilize. 

One feature I have recently discovered tracks my daily screen time.
Damn. I use it much more than I thought I did. 
I guess it is a nice-to-know kind of thing and I am going to have to pay closer attention to how I am using my time. I do spend time with several games -- Star Battle, Arrows, and a few of the NYT games.
I'd like to be able to claim that my time is spent reading on the Kindle app (and some of it is), but most of my reading is actually done on my Kindle paperwhite. 
The tracking shows which apps are the great time suckers and while I do spend time reading worthwhile articles, I am also wasting plenty of time with nonsense.
Sacrebleu!

I've also just added a smartwatch to my tech stuff. I know I am late to the party and even feel that my Fitbit Versa 4 is an older, scaled down model to what is actually available in the smartwatch market. However, it was something I could get through my Medicare Advantage plan and didn't actually cost me anything. I've had a couple of cheap versions in the past, but this is definitely more functional than my previous smart watches. 
I am still figuring it out, getting it set-up, and trying to decide if I really want a watch that tells me I'm fat and lazy and need to get up and move my ass. 
Technology!

My watch talks to my phone.
My phone talks to my truck.
I can stream Netflix to my phone, Chromebook, or TV. 
Meta, Google, and Amazon sell my travel, shopping, and browsing data to the world.
And the centers that store and broker all of that data are using up resources and destroying the earth.

Technology!
It's a wonderful thing 
...until it isn't.
It is definitely something to be monitored.

John

Election Day!

It is election day in Missouri and although it is a primary election for our congressional and state representatives, there are also some important ballot initiatives to be decided. 
Vote!

John

Dog Days

The "Dog days of summer" are coming to an end and one might expect that would mean that cooler temperatures will be coming quickly. However, although the dog days are associated with summer time heat, they are associated more by correlation than by causation. 
The time from early July until mid August is often the hottest time of year in the northern hemisphere. It is also the time of year that the constellation Canis Major (the big dog) and Sirius, the night's brightest star, are emerging from being behind the sun.
Sirius, (the Dog Star) is just now visible in the early morning sky, rising just before sunrise. By winter it will be visible nearly the entire night, rising at around 7:30 PM on the solstice. 

I mention this because our temps are heading upwards again and will be nearing 100 (38 C) degrees in just a few days. The couple of cooler days were welcome, but today starts another warm up. I'm okay with that.  The continuing March towards shorter days and cooler temps makes me a little sad. 
I am a summer boy.

August is motivating me to get ready for the coming winter. And by "getting ready for winter" I mean planning a trip to a warmer climate! I hope that airfare remains affordable for trips to Mexico. Or maybe we can plan something along the southern coast of Texas or Florida. That would work, too.

Happy Monday.
Enjoy the sun and the summer. 
Summer days are going quickly.

John

August

It is going to be an unusually cool and overcast day for this time of year.
Overall, it has been a pretty decent summer. Although we have had our hot days, they have been bearable and we have only reached 100 degrees (38 C) one time -- so far.

I'm basically a summer person and the hot days don't really bother me that much. In fact, we managed almost all of June with the windows open and no A/C. It will be nice to turn the A/C off for the day and let the fresh air flow through the house today.

The night sky in August is a good one. The so called star of the show is generally the Perseids meteor shower which peaks on the night of the 12th and early morning of the 13th. For those in Iceland or Spain, a total solar eclipse happens during the daylight hours of the 12th. This means that there is a new moon phase and dark sky for the nighttime meteor shower. 
North American sky watchers can catch the partial lunar eclipse later in the month on the evening of the 27th.

Additionally, there will be an early morning planetary alignment that coincides with the solar eclipse and meteor shower. Venus will still be in the evening sky, but the rest of the planets will line up nicely just before dawn in the eastern sky on the morning of the 12th.
It should be noted that Neptune and Uranus are not visible without a small telescope and Mercury, never very far from the sun, will not be visible until just before sunrise.

Tuesday, August 4, is Primary day in Missouri with several important ballot items. 
Missouri voters are weird. They will vote for progressive ballot initiatives and also vote for the conservative representatives that oppose them and often try to overturn the will of the people through other legislative measures. 
smh

The calendar page turns and life moves on.

Happy August!
John

Random Conversations and Unwanted Gifts

I get sharing confidential things or personally meaningful things with close friends. But I sometimes get people that are barely acquaintances sharing those types of things with me. It happened with co-workers and it still happens with random people I encounter. 

An older woman who is a widow sharing how lonely she gets living by herself.
A man I barely know telling me about his wife's recent dementia diagnosis.
Overnight guests at the shelter sharing personal struggles.
I don't think any of them expect anything. They just need to vent and need somebody to hear them and to see them.

Not long ago, a gay man that really isn't out yet, shared his story and his struggles with me. We are close to the same age, share a few life things in common and were sort of randomly paired together to work at an overnight shelter. It was the first time we met.
At the end of a long conversation, I felt compelled to ask -- Why me? What made you feel safe enough to share this with me?
Honestly, he looked a little shocked, like he just realized what he had done. But then he recovered and said - I don't know. You just felt safe.

If it turns out that my "gift" is to put out a peaceful vibe that puts stressed out people at ease -- well, I guess that's okay. But I don't have the training nor the education to know what to do -- other than to just listen.
Maybe listening without judgement and without offering advice is what people want and need.
Maybe people don't share because sharing generally opens up a window of condemnation.
Maybe they are not looking for advice on how to be fixed or to have their problem solved.
Maybe they just need a safe place and a quiet moment to rest from their struggles.

I don't know.
And I don't understand how (or why) I get to be that person.
Do you ever find yourself in a position that you are surprisingly well suited for, yet you are a bit uncomfortable with it?

I think many people that have known me are questioning the judgment of the people that confide in me -- John? Really?
In my head I tell myself -- I'm too old for this shit.
I think I've been dealt some pretty crappy super-powers -- short sleeper, power napper, good listener.
Makes me wanna say -- F*#k!

John

Summer in the Ozarks

Late July in the Ozarks of SWMO is going to be hot and usually pretty humid. It appears that we will get a break on the humid part as the temperature pushes the 100 degree mark (38 C). 
Although it is going to be hot and I don't spend as much time outside as I used to in the summertime, I don't think we've had a 100 degree day yet this summer. While I am a believer in man made climate change, sometimes it's just hot because that is the nature of summer in the Ozarks.

I've been a bit lazy this past week and put off some yard work that needs to be done. It's not that I've been entirely lazy; I've managed to do some less strenuous things, but the yard work hasn't done itself, so...
I guess today will be the day.
The plan is to begin before it gets too hot.
Work until I've had enough.
Cool off by relaxing in the pool.

Yeah, it's a tough life.

Motivation to get started is often my greatest challenge. Admittedly, I am a slow starter in the day. Sitting and sipping coffee is a simple, slow start that I greatly enjoy. The sedentary inertia requires great effort to overcome. I often allow myself the distractions of reading one more chapter, solving one more puzzle, or playing one more game before getting started. Before I know it -- it is late in the morning and getting hot enough to discourage much outside work.

As I said, the past week wasn't entirely unproductive. I did manage to make a couple of adjustments to our screen doors, re-pot several succulents and some cone flowers, re-organize our freezer to make room for some frozen meat that we bought, and unpack some new nightstands -- the first pieces of some new bedroom furniture to arrive.
In addition to the normal home owner stuff, it looks like I have a couple of people engagements on the schedule for the coming week. I might need some extra pool time to keep things in balance.

Stay cool,
John