Thursday Theology -- Deconstructing Your Faith

A recent post from a friend has had me thinking.
The post was an ask for spiritual counseling or for somebody to talk to about faith and questions about God/faith/etc. Honestly, I don't remember exactly how it was worded and I don't know what their particular crisis of faith might have been at the time of the ask. What I do know is that faith deconstruction is a difficult and often lonely process -- one that often leaves people with no faith at all. 

Here's the thing --
I have no theological education nor background of any kind.
I have no qualifications as a counselor of any kind.
I am no longer (and never really was) a preacher nor clergy of any kind.

But...
I have been through my own faith deconstruction and managed to come out of it feeling closer to God than I was when I was burdened by all of the religious crap that was the foundation of my previous spiritual experience.
I get needing or wanting somebody to talk to or to be able to verbalize what you are going through. I really didn't feel like I had that. I was pretty much a heretic in my previous circles, but I was okay with that. Yes, having a qualified spiritual guide to talk to might have been helpful -- but I didn't even realize I needed it at the time.

As I said -- I am no expert in deconstruction, but I have a personal experience that I can share.
I can listen to your questions and maybe help you find answers. 
I can offer a couple of books that I found helpful.
And I can do it through private written communication or over a cup of coffee or a pint beer.
For some people, it might be best to meet in a small group where others can share both experience and insight as well as asking their own questions.

Anyway, I've been thinking about it, so I just thought I'd throw this out there.
Hit me up if I can serve you as you walk your own faith journey.
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John

Good Noise

It's weird how the word noise carries a negative connotation. Sounds can be good, but noise is generally bad.
Night noises usually refer to the creepy, scary sounds of the night; where night sounds might be about the calming sounds of bugs, frogs, and other critters.

Last week I spent several nights sleeping on the deck futon.
This week the nights have been a little warm and I've been sleeping inside.
Sometimes (like last night) the night sounds can be incredibly loud. 
This morning the outside sounds are also quite loud. Along with the morning chatter from the birds, the bugs and frogs are still chirping and chattering.

I don't know what it is about the sounds of nature that are so calming -- really kind of healing. 
I am a believer that grounding --physical contact with the earth -- is beneficial to the body and spirit. Maybe there is also something like an auditory connection. Maybe nature has an auditory frequency that is also healing to the body and spirit. It is likely just easier to recognize it at night when there are fewer man-made sounds flooding the space around us. The natural sounds of the forests, the mountains, or the seas likely bring the same peace and healing. 

I know that this space that I have is quite a privilege. As the sun is beginning to climb a bit higher in the eastern sky, the bugs, frogs, and night critters are slowly becoming more quiet and giving way to the sounds of the day. Even though the cars and trucks on the nearby highway create a steady hum of low frequency traffic noise, the sounds of nature are easily separated and heard with the simplest concentration or meditation. 

It is Wednesday, so I'll offer this bit of wisdom:
Find a way to connect to the sounds of nature -- even if it means streaming the night sounds from your phone. Be aware of the life that lives around us that we don't see. I find a connection to our Creator in the sounds of nature. 
Maybe the auditory sensation of calming isn't about healing. Maybe it's about connecting with God and remembering that I am a part of the creation. Maybe it is a call to live in harmony with nature rather than trying to conquer or exploit it.

Enjoy the sounds of nature today.
It's time for me to tend to my flowers.

John 

Are there any good people stories?

I could use a good human story.
There is far too much bullshit being posted on social media platforms and so much fake stuff that I am ready to retreat to the deck with only a drink, a cigar, and a book.
Forever.

To be fair -- 
I have a good life and recognize the joy I find in simple things -- blooming flowers, singing birds, dragonflies hunting in my backyard, etc. Nature provides me with many hours of pleasure just by observing what is going on around me. 

However, human nature often brings me down. 
I seem to find far much more corruption than kindness among my fellow humans. People seem more hurtful than helpful. 
Please convince me that I am wrong.
I need some good human stories.

Good human stories don't have to be anything spectacular. Simple kindness is enough for me. 
Tell me something good!

John

Missed Milestone

Hmmm...
I just noticed that I missed the milestone 3000th post.
This is post #3003. 
Damn! That's a lot of nonsense that has been put out into the world by a single person. 
One week from today will be my 19th blogoversary. 
Now that is a milestone! There are only a few of the blogs that I was following from back in the day that are still around as blogging has given way to podcasts and other more advanced forms of social media.

I'll have more thoughts on that next week.

Today I am thinking about flowers.
Some time ago I read about a farmer that used a road side portion of his field to plant flowers and made them available to anybody that wanted them. He set up a small stand that had hand held cutting shears and a number of small, inexpensive vases. Not only did many people come and cut flowers to take home, they also left vases and shears for others to use.

Maybe I can do something like that with a portion of my yard.
We don't have much traffic on our road as there are only a dozen or so homes and it ends in a cul-de-sac. Nevertheless, neighbors and their friends might benefit from a free flower stand. The local birds, bees, and butterflies certainly would!
And I could always cut flowers and give them away myself.
I mean -- Who doesn't love freshly cut flowers?
For now, it's just a thought. 
Also a thought -- Do I really need one more outdoor project?

Truthfully, flowers make me happy.
Being outside and working with them makes me happy.
Seeing them make other people happy makes me happy.

Maybe I do need one more outdoor project.

John

Wednesday Wisdom

It's late in the day (8 PM) and I'm just getting around to opening the Chromebook for an evening post.
It makes sense that today's wisdom is simply that some days you just go with the flow. 

I have been enjoying some cold brewed iced coffee in the mornings for the last week or so.  I was out of cold brew and didn't feel like brewing a pot of coffee this morning, so I went out and cleared the last of a Starbucks gift card and bought a trenta iced coffee. 
I enjoyed the coffee on the road and did a walk-through at Harbor Freight. Then I came home and did my time weeding the flowerbed, dead-heading plants, and watering stuff while listening to Pandora's Classic Rock Radio. I don't know if I'll get to finish that section of the flowerbed tomorrow because I have a luncheon to attend. I may work during the afternoon hours; partly cloudy and 92 (33C) is doable. Or I could mow tomorrow afternoon instead of Friday.

I guess I'll take my own advice and go with the flow. There isn't a real priority other than the mowing needs to be done in the next day or two and the weeding, mulching, watering, and dead-heading are pretty much ongoing daily projects -- forever!

It was a good day.
Now it is time to read a book with the night sounds in the background.
It's a simple life.
It's a good life.
It's just another day in the life of John.

John

Daily Activity (yard work at my place)

I've been behind in my yard work lately. I really left my flowerbeds unattended for too long and now there are quite a few weeds and grasses that have taken root where I don't want them. For the past few days (and for the next several to come) I have been spending a couple of hours pulling weeds. I had a few other things to take care of yesterday morning, so I was pulling weeds during the hot part of the day. 

I found myself looking ahead at how much work was still to do and had to remind myself that having a yard this size to take care of is a privilege that few people have. And besides, there really is some joy to be gained from digging in the dirt and producing some colorful flowers. I love having a vase of freshly cut flowers on the counter and easily visible to anyone that walks into our home (even though no one ever walks into our home).

I enjoy looking out over the smaller flowerbed that I can see from the deck. It is filled with perennials and self-seeding annuals (and also needs to be weeded). I do wish that I knew more about growing flowers, but I am slowly learning by doing and I am picking up tips and information from a few different plant pages on different social media platforms. 
I definitely see a small (but not too small) greenhouse in my future.

But for the coming week or so, it will be a few hours of pulling weeds and spreading mulch each day.
Not so much that I get sick and tired of it, but enough to give me a bit of activity each day so that I rest well at night and have something that gives me some sense of accomplishment. 

A thought just occurred to me -- Having flowers to appreciate shouldn't be a privilege. Everyone should have a little such beauty in their day.

Be well, my friends.

John

What are you learning?

Once again, I have decided to learn to speak Spanish.
Spanish is the official language of twenty countries and the US territory of Puerto Rico, plus it is widely spoken in Mexico, the USA, and the Philippines. 

I am using Great Courses plus to learn and am just over a week into the course. My greatest challenge is finding places to actually speak in Spanish. I need to find a cigar smoking Mexican man that might need help learning English so that we can smoke cigars, sip tequila, and help each other learn our languages. In today's world, I don't think that advertising for a Mexican person that needs to learn English would get any response, so I guess I'll have to find another way to practice.

I know there are AI courses that allow you to converse with an AI generated teacher. I might have to look into that if taking an old fashioned, repeat-after-me course doesn't work. I don't know that true fluency is the goal, but I would like to be conversationally fluent enough to do more than order a beer and tacos. I am glad there are online translation apps like Google Translate to help when we are in Mexico.

The US is a vast land and there really is no need to learn a second language if your travel is restricted to the US and Canada (although French would be helpful in parts of Quebec). However, it is a little pathetic that so few of us can speak more than just English. Truthfully, it's pathetic at the number that struggle to speak English properly.

Learning a second language is my current quest. 
That and shedding about 60 pounds (27 kg). 
Truthfully, I am doing more to learn Spanish than I am to lose weight, so it is more likely that I'll just be un gringo gordo rather than a normal sized English only American. 

I've completed today's Spanish lesson so I should probably get to work.
¡Adios amigos!

John

Theology and books

I am currently reading Peter Enns' book Curveball: When Your Faith Takes Turns You Never Saw Coming. I am only 1/3 of the way through it, but I am thoroughly enjoying it -- so much so that I was thinking that this is a book worthy of a book club selection and discussion. I kind of wish I had someone to discuss it with as I am reading it.

Having said that, I really don't think I'm much of a book club kind of person. While I do read books of many different kinds, I generally read what I want and at my own speed. I am currently reading through a fiction series of a badass black ops team by Scott Conrad. I often have two books going at the same time -- one fiction and one nonfiction.

Back to Curveball;
I'll get around to writing a review for it when I finish reading it, but I'm wondering if there are theological books that others have read or would like to read that seem to call for discussion as you read through them. I don't know what an online as-you-read book club might look like, or if there are other people in my local area that would be up for an occasional group read of such books, but I'd be interested to try something out.
I'm thinking -- it doesn't even have to be a book centered on theology. They could be books on behavior or how we think or philosophy. I suppose they could be fiction or nonfiction, although I think the genre would typically be mostly nonfiction.

Whether or not such groups exist, I am interested in books of theology or philosophy that you have read and would recommend. I should include books of other religions or belief systems that might not really fall under theology, but address the spiritual lives of its followers. I am particularly interested in progressive Christian authors that have managed to evolve or deconstruct (or whatever they want to call it) in their following of God.

What are you reading?

John

Wednesday Wisdom

I think most people would say I have a boring life.
I don't.
I would agree that I have a simple life.
I am happy with that.

Up when I finish sleeping
Coffee on the deck 
Morning quiet time
Some computer time, light reading, maybe something to learn (currently online Spaanish course)
A couple of hours of yard work
Afternoon on the deck
Cigar, drink, book, music
Evening on the deck or maybe a baseball game
Simple, not boring.

It works for me.

I'm not sure how I feel about this. I understand the sentiment, but being busy and doing stuff isn't the same as living. Find your peace. Be happy.

John

The USA and Democracy

The "demos" of the pre-Common Era Grecian world were considered to be the lower class of citizens. Our current language defines "demos" as the people making democracy the rule by the people.
Aristocracy is the rule by a few aristocrats -- often wealthy by power of inheritance or social status.
Plutocracy is rule by the rich where wealth translates to power. It is similar to oligarchy, except in oligarchy the rule is by a few that came to power by any means, not just wealth. Plutocracy is a form of oligarchy.

More and more, it appears that the USA is becoming more of a plutocracy (rule by the rich) than it is a democracy (rule by the people). When it costs more than a million dollars to run for a seat in the House of Representatives you know that we have strayed far from the representation of the people by the people that our founders envisioned.

I have to say that I am more than a little disillusioned about celebrating our freedom on this Independence Day. I am no longer sure about who is included in the "our" part of our freedom. The inalienable rights of all humans defined in our Declaration of Independence don't seem to apply to everyone anymore. It is now criminal to pursue life, liberty, and happiness. If we really believed in those basic human rights, shouldn't we be helping people that are seeking them rather than hindering or criminalizing them and their families?

I am not pleased with the current politics of the USA, and I fear that the current ruling class will make it very difficult to swing the control back to something more moderate. I am also at a loss as to what an old, retired guy can do to help change things. I am especially displeased with the so-called Christian Nationalists that claim to have God telling them to do some very un-Godly things with their power.

I just don't know how to describe my feelings today.
I do know that I am not alone.
I think I am going to fly my flag today. 
I am going to celebrate the years that I have been proud to live in the USA.
I am going to celebrate the hope that I have that I will again be proud of living in the USA.
I am going to celebrate that I have a vote and a voice to change the representation of the demos in government.

I will grill some burgers today, 
We'll have some corn on the cob. 
We watched fireworks last night and I am sure that we will see some from the deck tonight.
It's a little weird that this year's Fourth of July seems more like a day of reflection and remembrance than a day of celebration. 
I just don't know what it means to be a citizen of the USA anymore.
Honestly, I'm kind of bummed out about that.

John

Wednesday Wisdom

 I hope everyone has a few people that are like medicine in their life.

John

July 1

The sun is poking through a mostly overcast sky in the Ozarks of SWMO. It looks like it will be another beautiful day in the Ozarks. Even under cloudy skies there is a serenity and solemn beauty that exists in the rural setting that I look out at as I enjoy my coffee each morning. I hope that I never take the privilege of early retirement for granted and that I will always appreciate the beauty and comfort of my home.

Happy Canada Day to my friends in the north!
Friday will be Independence Day here in the US. 
I guess July might not be a historically good month for Great Britain.

The calendar shows that we are beginning the second half of 2025. If you are actually counting days, the halfway point is noon on July 2nd. Maybe I should set some goals for the second half of the year. I feel like I am an underachiever. I think that most people would find my life incredibly boring. It is a little weird that I really don't do anything and yet I can't say that I am at all bored with life. Perhaps that is a part of the privilege of having the choice to do nothing.

I have gotten better about working earlier in the day as the summer intensifies. I feel like that is progress. I am a slow starter when it comes to doing things during the day. I can't really say how much I appreciate my quiet mornings on the deck. Alone with my coffee and Chromebook and the sounds of the birds that are gathering food and singing their songs is the best time of day and I tend to enjoy it for much longer than I really should.
I saw a pair of gold finches in the flowers this morning. I've seen them in the past, but it might be the first time this summer. 

I have some wind damage to clean up and just general yard maintenance to take care of today, so I'd better get to it. 

Have a wonderful July.

John